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I've seen this room and I've walked this floor.
Why is Tom Cruise's official site advertised? Why is he advertised?
So many questions. The more we know... The less we know, as some person once said. I don't get life anymore.
January 24th, 2009
September 30th, 2008
Long time no post but I feel glorious for a change. Such a beautiful thing, isn't it?
I feel like sunshine dust and clear skies. Off to chat up a storm.
All things are a go.
Bye!
:)
I feel like sunshine dust and clear skies. Off to chat up a storm.
All things are a go.
Bye!
:)
August 22nd, 2008
August 1st, 2008
Feel terribly depressed again. God, I just want this feeling to go away! Or at least ease the hell up and give me some damn space.
Listening to "Same Mistake" by James Blunt and though sometimes I find his lyrics a bit... like dry wall, in that they seem solid but are often times empty when you crack through them, I do love this song a lot. Especially now that I've been sobbing over P.S. I Love You, the book. I'm sure once I get to the movie, I'll be a goner.
My favorite lines for reasons unknown:
1.) My heart is heavy does it show?/So here I go...
2.) Don't buy the promises 'cause there are no promises I keep.
3.) Look at the stars and wonder where did I go wrong
4.) Maybe someday we will meet/And maybe talk and not just speak
From another one of my favorite lines from a James Blunt song, Carry You Home:
1.) A song for your heart but when it is quiet, I know what it means and I'll carry you home.
Fuck depression.
Love,
M.
Listening to "Same Mistake" by James Blunt and though sometimes I find his lyrics a bit... like dry wall, in that they seem solid but are often times empty when you crack through them, I do love this song a lot. Especially now that I've been sobbing over P.S. I Love You, the book. I'm sure once I get to the movie, I'll be a goner.
My favorite lines for reasons unknown:
1.) My heart is heavy does it show?/So here I go...
2.) Don't buy the promises 'cause there are no promises I keep.
3.) Look at the stars and wonder where did I go wrong
4.) Maybe someday we will meet/And maybe talk and not just speak
From another one of my favorite lines from a James Blunt song, Carry You Home:
1.) A song for your heart but when it is quiet, I know what it means and I'll carry you home.
Fuck depression.
Love,
M.
July 29th, 2008
Feeling down again, though with my usual hopes to bounce back soon.
Back in a vicious cycle to love-hate with one of my good friends. It's hard when they're absolute pricks one moment and then irresistibly sweet and funny the next. Terrible.
Off I go.
Laters.
Back in a vicious cycle to love-hate with one of my good friends. It's hard when they're absolute pricks one moment and then irresistibly sweet and funny the next. Terrible.
Off I go.
Laters.
July 21st, 2008
I went driving with my friend today. We weren't going anywhere, just driving aimlessly, listening to music and catching up.
I realized how much I miss little moments like those, way more fun than parties or the movies.
I really missed just having a face-to-face connection with my friend again. I'm glad I went. I feel much better now.
Hopefully it's last.
Cheers and love to you always.
-M.
I realized how much I miss little moments like those, way more fun than parties or the movies.
I really missed just having a face-to-face connection with my friend again. I'm glad I went. I feel much better now.
Hopefully it's last.
Cheers and love to you always.
-M.
July 16th, 2008
I feel lonely as hell. Just really, really lonely.
I don't really connect with any of my friends and my family is too fixed on already knowing me to attempt to delve any further.
I hate feeling alone but I feel like more and more, it's how I am.
Changes are hard to make but even when I can make them, they don't do much.
I feel like a drop of rainwater in a ravenous, rushing river. You know? You're obviously surrounded by people like you but that's exactly the thing, you get lost anyway.
I hope I wake up and feel better. Any day is better than none at all.
Love you, whoever you may or may not be.
-M.
I don't really connect with any of my friends and my family is too fixed on already knowing me to attempt to delve any further.
I hate feeling alone but I feel like more and more, it's how I am.
Changes are hard to make but even when I can make them, they don't do much.
I feel like a drop of rainwater in a ravenous, rushing river. You know? You're obviously surrounded by people like you but that's exactly the thing, you get lost anyway.
I hope I wake up and feel better. Any day is better than none at all.
Love you, whoever you may or may not be.
-M.
July 1st, 2008
I've realized something today, I feel dumb for not having understood it sooner. Here it is.
Love is not a commodity.
It doesn't have to be saved or grudgingly given, it should be everywhere. Maybe in cases like romantic love, it's easier and arguably better, to limit it but in our day to day lives, who are we to keep it so selfishly?
We're always telling ourselves that we're neither better nor worse than anyone, and if so, why not love others like we love (or should love) ourselves?
Until someone proves themself unworthy of our respect, affection and compassion, why deny them?
Spread the love.
Unconditional love is the wave of the future. Or... should be. : )
Over and out.
-M.
Love is not a commodity.
It doesn't have to be saved or grudgingly given, it should be everywhere. Maybe in cases like romantic love, it's easier and arguably better, to limit it but in our day to day lives, who are we to keep it so selfishly?
We're always telling ourselves that we're neither better nor worse than anyone, and if so, why not love others like we love (or should love) ourselves?
Until someone proves themself unworthy of our respect, affection and compassion, why deny them?
Spread the love.
Unconditional love is the wave of the future. Or... should be. : )
Over and out.
-M.
June 19th, 2008
I hate the term "hubby". Really. It's just... I don't know, very unappealing to the ears. And makes me squeamish. Terribly, terribly squeamish. Is the term "husband" too much to ask? Or "partner" if you're New Age-esque.
Question of mine that's been stewing in me noggin:
Do we live more for ourselves or for those who've made it all possible?
More confusing everytime I think on it.
Hope if anyone is reading this, you're doing well because I love you.
Question of mine that's been stewing in me noggin:
Do we live more for ourselves or for those who've made it all possible?
More confusing everytime I think on it.
Hope if anyone is reading this, you're doing well because I love you.
June 9th, 2008
Fan's a-whirring, dogs are panting with exhaustion, keys a-clacking.
So, I was thinking about it and I've decided that what I want to improve and preserve is my sense of compassion, wit and general awe-mazement.
Why:
1.) Because people are what really matter. They make life just a little more unpredictable and all the more enjoyable... Mostly.
2.) Because a laugh is really one of the greatest things a person can do and certainly one of the greatest things to cause.
3.) Because life is really friggin' amazing. I never want to get over the fact that wow, a little leaf, inches of branches and a few hours of sunshine make a huge tree that can support a bird's home, a squirrel's burrow, a lover's carving. How noble. :P
I plan on starting my huge writing project today, goal for today is one great sentence. I'll pray for many more great sentences to come. Will also bake a huge batch of chocolate chip cookies today and sandwich ice cream between two. For once, calories are side lined. Also, I never expected people to comment on my writing in those two entries I posted but it's a welcome surprise.
Hope whoever, if anyone's, reading this, your day is lovely and if it isn't so much, I hope you think of how much there is to love and live for.
After awhile, crocodile.
June 7th, 2008
If this was my real to do list, I'd spend ages here at D.McD but instead, I'll make things easy and list the main problemos.
1.) Write more: It's a shame how I neglect such a passion o' mine.
2.) Learn to dance: Because I just want to express myself and there are few better ways to do so.
3.) Sleep more
4.) Get new music: As much as I love my standard playlists, I'm sure there are plenty of musical deities I have yet to discover and worship appropriately.
5.) Get over two someones with initials A and B. Coincidental, no?
And here's my Triple-World-Score-Supercalifragilistice
1.] Stop obsessing over the little things
2.] Stop being irrationally irritable or spiteful
3.] Write more
4.] Open up
5.] Want what I have
6.] Stop fantasizing so much about tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow.
I haven't been able to sleep well recently, am quite exhausted, have been having this feeling of just a looming, impending something or other. I suppose I just have to sort myself out some more. I have a lot more time to do that these days.
Off to attempt a nap or something.
Bye Bye
- Desky McDesk Desk
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exhausted - Grace